The funny thing about a “gut feeling” is that it’s always right. Always right… I met a man, well, i saw a man sitting in a room on top of what seemed to be a ledge, an opening into another area. He was wearing a beige suit with a white dress shirt. I looked at him at that point in time and thought, hmm, i want him to be a part of my life. My gut was telling me to say hello, but my nerves, well… they weren’t. So life went on. I would run into him from time to time around the city at events had by mutual friends.. and every time i saw his smile, my gut was saying… “speak woman, speak!”… but as usual, those damn nerves… Since then we were introduced through mutual friends but have always had this sort of unspoken tension. I’m sure anyone reading this knows what that feels like. That odd tingling, heart beating fast, smiling, nervous, wanting desperately to touch but for some reason hesitant feeling.. Yes, that was our story. I’d say something of the cuff and he’d reply, off the cuff. It was great. A cat and mouse of sorts. Well, that was three years ago and finally, after all that time… all of those conversations and outings, dinners with friends and family gatherings… it occurred. Its so funny when you meet someone and you just know, without any doubt that there is potential for magic, for creating an existence together that is often unheard of, well that’s the feeling he brings. Maybe because my life is pretty fantastic and the notion that he would only add to the joy i already have is sometimes overwhelming. Maybe its because i knew when i first saw him that he was a unique soul, or maybe because i just knew sex with him would be fantastically amazing… maybe because he knew. Its crazy because we as beings, we have these normal, natural urges that require fulfillment. Its a necessary part of the journey. I have decided that i will be the only voice of reason as to who i have sex with based on a variety of characteristics and traits. It’s at times, well most times, limiting as my standards are a bit above the norm. Though this leads to stints of loneliness, i find solitude in knowing i only get what i want and that these standards… they are mine and mine alone. And so… it was well worth the wait… fantastically amazing. Two days have past and i can still feel him… his presence lingering inside my soul…
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